Reports :

Letter 1

I have news, may be it will be bad or good to you. I do not know...
Yesterday in our firm came people from housing committee (State
Supervision of the Available housing). They made extraordinary check
of our building. They gave to us very bad results. Today my boss told
me I shall have 3 months of a vacation. Because our building is in an
extreme condition. A building where located our firm, will be closed
on repair. Approximately in 1 week, and I shall have a vacation, but I
was not pleased. I cannot refuse this vacation. In a building of our
firm will be made major overhaul. Repair will last 3 months. I have
begun to cry, because it means that I can't write to you, I can't use
a computer. Mike, I was so frightened that I can lose you. I imagined
that I should spend this vacation in my apartment, between four walls.
I should sit in loneliness and think of you. I should aimlessly wander
on streets and fall asleep with tears on eyes every night. I have been
waiting for my vacation in the next summer and I receive it NOW, but
they don't bring pleasure to me. Because in the next summer, I cannot
receive my vacation. I imagined that I should spend some months
without you and awful emptiness had appeared in my heart. All world
around became uninteresting for me and I told myself: "NO! It is not
for me!" Last night I thought of us. About you and me. Mike, I
couldn't fall asleep again. I had been crying for a long time because
of despair. My thoughts were mixed, like inking waves during a storm,
and I, like a small ship was sank in the sea of despair. With the
rising of sun I calmed and hold on myself. And I have put a hard aim,
the aim of all my life - to be with a man who loves me and I love him
by all my heart. I thought what I can see you. I decided to spend this
vacation with you. I thought that I can meet you. Just meet. That's
all what I want now. I have passport and I have American visa. Of
course our relations still very short. But our correspondence became
very important for me. I hope for you too... I thought that we should
continue our dialogue, but this situation makes impossible to continue
it further. I should stop to write you in a week... It is so sad.. I
do not want it happened. Besides Mike through letters is impossible to
learn completely each other. Letters will not give the full
description of the person. I hope you understand about what I told
you. But I already could understand and feel you, you seem to me very
good, lovely, serious and the most important reliable man. I am so
glad that have met you!!! I very much would not want lose you, Mike.
Your letters became the important element of my daily life. I do not
want very much live without you. I ask you to think about it. I shall
be very glad and happy if we can meet.

Since I started talking to you, I just can't stop thinking of you
I KISS YOU.
Your Irina