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I'm okay, work takes all my time but I'm not against- I love it. Otherwise, I 'd feel boring. I'm always happy getting a new letter from you. The only thing which makes me upset is that I can't write you as often as you write me. But I wish I could. I'd like to talk to you all the time but you know it's impossible for you and me, unfortunately. I'm so thankful to you for your writing me. Your feelings to me are very important. I'm glad that both of us feel the same way. It brings sence to my life and hope for better times. I always check my mail box expecting a new letter from you. I live with these expectations. I dreamed of you a lot. I imagined I was talking to you holding your arms and looking into your eyes. I'm absolutely honest now, that's true and I don't want to hide my feelings . I like dreaming very much. I don't know, perhaps, it's not good but I'm a romantic person who likes to dream. Since I was a little girl, I dreamed very much. I remember pretty well our techer in school telling us to forget about our dreams because they won't do any good to us. She used to say "Draming brings only pain and disappointment when you realise that they are not a reality" Perhaps, she was right here. Dreams don't always come true actually. Even if you do your best to reach it. It's insufficient I think. If you try to make your dream come true, it gives you a purpose in your life. That's essential. Not everything depands on us in this world for success. There's a destiny. And I believe there's some invisible power which makes events happen or not happen. But I think that anyway you should live with a Dream. It brings Hope. You know- if there's a will there's a way. That's one of the principles of my life. Moreover, dreams help you to understand what you want from your life. You start thinking everything over, analyzing you behavior, choosing the best way and making up your mind about your future actions. And then every success brings you so much satisfaction and hope that it helps you to live. Even if it's a smallest step up to your Dream. Your heart is filled with pleasure, belief and hope. It's better to remember your victories than things that had hurt you whenever. That's why I'm fond of dreaming though they very seldom come true. I'm surprised i'm writing to you about all this. These are my inner thoughts. I think that's because I subconciously trust you. I've never had a person I could open my heart to, I could share my feelings. But now you appeared in my life Gavin and I feel you'll understand me. I'm completely open to you and I want to repeat you are a part of my life now. I must be honest I'm almost dreadful , terrified with the thought I can lose you. Forguve me all my honesty and strengh of feelings. I'm sorry if I've offended you somehow or brought any discomfort. Don't stop writing me every day if you can. I'm sorry I can't write you very friquently. I try my hardest, really. I hope you're ok and everything is fine. I'll wait for your letter. I can't wait to meet you. I'm still learning how to arrange all the documents to come to you.