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Hello! I write you the letter, and in my eyes of tears. I do not know as me to cope with this pain. You know, I all night long thought today that has occurred yesterday... I could not dismiss it. I sat all the night long on kitchen and thought. I simply looked out of the window and observed of stars. At times, I would like to rise on a window and to be thrown out. In this world, I to whom it is not necessary. And just now I have understood it. Just now I could feel it. I have lived 30 years, and just now to me these thoughts have come... For my 30 years I saw much. But only this night I could understand sense of all my inutile life…

I would not like to live in this ***** any more, a life full of a deceit... After all everything, that I wanted, to love you and to live with you in happiness, pleasure all my life. I wished to spend my old age, I wished to share with you all moments of a life... But yesterday you have clearly let me know that it is not necessary for you... I am not necessary to you. You know, to me it is now very sick, my heart probably is ready to jump out, I write and in my opinion all blurs.... I have gotten tired of it all. Explain to me, what for you to arrive with me? What for? Simply explain to me. Unless I did to you painfully? I did everything that you asked. I wrote you big letters every day and waited for you for the answer. I ask if the silly woman would run to the library to see your letter. When I received the letter from you, my smile did not disappear. I was happy that you appeared during my life. I believe that a wonderful, happy future... But I was deeply mistaken....... I do not know how to reconcile it…