Reports :

Thank you for your new answer Richard and it was really nice to see your new picture with flowers, thank you for sending it to me. It was interesting to know about your normal day and how it goes. You know, I'm starting to notice that it's becoming some kind of good habit for me to have our regular communication (smile). With help of our letters, I start learning you better. The way you think. The way you speak with me and share something. Believe me, I read it with great interest and remember it. Sorry, if sometimes I do not give you detailed commentary to all what you write to me, but all this is really interesting for me. Sometimes I just don't know how to comment, sometimes I may be afraid to tell you my opinion. Maybe it sounds silly for you, but it's true. I'm sure, later I will be more open to you and this silly woman's fear will disappear (smile). For the moment I'm trying to speak more about my life, my past, my thoughts for you can understand and learn from me better either. Hope I do it by good way (smile). Maybe it's another reason, why I sometimes miss something to write after reading your letter. Since I have so many things to share with you, that I'm ready to write without stopping whole day (smile). But then I understand that you will spent much time reading it and try to make my letters not so big. Anyway, if I missed something important to you, then just repeat it and I'm for sure give you my comment to it! How are you there today, all is fine? I'm fine here either. Nothing interesting happened with me since my last letter. About your question, I think the best finish of day and starting new one is when you go to sleep and wake up next to your loved person. Yes, I agree that later we will find a way to speak with each other by some other ways of communication.

I really appreciate that you told me your opinion about what I wrote you in my last letter. I just wanted to add that I told you all this for you better understand which life I had before. For you could understand what rules and traditions are in my country and that in the base of it is religion. Religion that I really don't like. Religion that I never choose and never want. At least at the way, as I see it here in my country. Maybe in other Muslim country all this is much different and men act by different way, maybe there they respect woman and woman have more rights and don't feel so bad as it's here. But for current moment from my own life experience I have such thoughts. When I wrote you my last letter I understood that now I can speak and discuss such topics without problems and it's good, I believe. Because it was enough personal thing of mine and the fact, that I shared it with you, means that I see in you such man, who be able to understand it right. Who will not condemn it . So in future, if all goes the same good between you and me, I be able also discuss with you another personal things also. One more important thing I wanted to add here. Please, don't think that I shared you about my sad past and was trying to cause your pity and get some special attitude to me, no! It never was my goal. I just shared my life experience for you know it. The same you may share your life experience with me and I will also take it right. Oh, I think there could appear some interesting question in your head after I told you this. I think you could ask me if I know what is love and if I ever loved. I think yes, I loved and it was also best part of my life. Of cause it was not with husband. It was before him. When I studied in Baku in University. I had one boyfriend during 3 years. It was really strong love and warm emotions. Maybe the reason of it was, that we were young that time or because we could do what we wanted and nobody could forbid us this. But I'm sure that it was a real love. It came to the end when we came to finishing university. We both understood that because of our religion and difference in our family we never be able to be together and become wife and husband. I remember his even first year of my marriage. But then all this gone and I have just nice memories. We even didn't have *** with that student, just kisses and caring.

Because we both knew that should follow traditions and don't have *** before wedding. Otherwise, later, I could even damage physically if my ex-husband would find out that I was not ******. And by this I would also bring shame on my father's house. So since that time I'm sure, that *** is not the most important part in relations. Of cause, it's one of important, but I know for sure that I may love a person and don't have *** with him. You know I think I don't look for some special qualities in my future man. As you know I don't care about his skin color, age or other external things. I don't think that I ask too much from my future man. All what I need is a man who will really love me, understand me and support me. I need to be sure that this man will not disappear suddenly and that I can give whole of me to such man. My heart, my soul and all my life time. I'm ready to do everything for such man, whom I will really love. Who's love I will feel. I never betray him and never change him for another one! Because I know my self. If say somebody "I love you", then I never be even look at another men with some kind of desire. I may also say what I don't want to see in my man. I would like my man hide something important from me or keep any kind of his emotions deep inside. I don't like when people shout and don't hear each other. And I would not want to be on the one of last place in the life of my man. And also, I mentioned in my previous letter about alcohol, it's also very important for me. Now, as you see, I had no rich experience with men. I don't know too much about *** and think that it's not so important to know. I'm looking for real love, real relations which bring me to happiness. Simple woman's happiness. I would like to keep a house clean. Would like my man always have very tasty and varied food every day. Would like to spend passion nights of love together and wake up with morning kiss. If it's too much? I'm not sure now if I want to have kids or not. I believe that such serious thing may be discussed after real meeting and some time spending together. It should be common decision any way. I can't say right now, that having kids is my life goal, no. Hope you were not bored by reading this letter (smile)? For me will be interesting what you think about this letter. If you ready and want, you may tell me want would you like to get in your new relations with woman? If you are ready for it for sure or maybe you prefer to continue a single life? For me will interesting to know what qualities you would like to see in your future wife most of all and which one you don't want to see? And of cause it would be interesting to see your new pictures. Wish you good day! Your friend p.s. I will share with you my pictures, that were done on my stolen smart phone and previous ones. I have some of that pictures saved on flash card