Reports :

My love Richard, thank you for your letter. As usual, you made my mood as good as possible, and I thank you for that! Today was my regular day at work, nothing interesting, I just had to stay at my work to finish big work till late time and only now, before I leave my work, I could check my mail and write you a letter.

Yes, I understand what you're telling me about taking your time with our meeting and also that you have reasons for it. And the reasons for this are your sad past experience. I thank you for your honesty and openness, you know, I appreciate it very much that it is present in our relationship. And I also openly and honestly want to tell you my thoughts on this topic. I am very sorry that you had such a big sad experience. Because I know that you are the best man in the world, the kindest, caring, wise and you deserve to be happy! And your good qualities have been used in the past by bad people to deceive you. And now you are afraid that this last attempt of yours would not become a final sad ending with me, like the previous ones. But you know, on the other hand, it also makes me somewhat offended. Because I'm not to blame for what happened to you in the past, I didn't hurt you, I didn't cheat on you before or now. From the very beginning, I was sincere with you in our communication and I am sure that you could feel it and therefore opened your heart for me and allowed me to enter your life. Therefore, when you say that because of your past sad experience, you do not want to rush to meet and my arrival to you, it makes me some sad. Because I can't understand why our relationship with you should depend on what happened in your past? If I ever gave you a reason to doubt me, my feelings or intentions? Perhaps you once felt my insincerity or did not believe my words in letters with which I tried to convey to you my emotions, feelings, mood? That's the question that arises inside me and maybe it even sounds like a slight indignation. And I don't want to hide it from you and tell you directly how I see and feel it.

Regarding the difficulties in obtaining a visa. You know, when I was looking for information about this, I visited various forums, went from one to another on different links which were placed there. If I can do it again in the next few days and find the same forums, then I'll give it to you right away. I understand that such forums, where immigrants or tourists from Azerbaijan to ** communicate, cannot be a 100% guarantee of truthfulness and the real state of affairs, but it really inspired me and gave me confidence. Together with the assurances of the travel agent based on his experience. But nevertheless I did as you said and wrote a letter to the official email of the organization that helps in issuing tourist visas from the embassy in Ankara. In the attachment of this letter I send you a screen copy of the information from the official website of the Norwegian Ministry of Foreign Affairs. I took the email they indicated there for such questions. I told them my age, family status, and other personal information, informed them that this would be my first trip abroad and I also indicated that I was going to you, to my beloved man, you would provide me with an invitation and give me the financial guarantees necessary to obtain a visa. I asked them what is the probability that I will get a tourist visa without any problems? At the moment, I haven't received their response yet. As soon as I receive an email from them, I can forward it to you so that you can also read it. I hope that I will get an answer from them coming days and after that we will know exactly how difficult it is for me to get a tourist visa to ** in our situation.

And most importantly, if everything goes well with their response, I want us not to waste any more time and start taking real steps for this meeting. Because I really don't know what else I can do, how to convince you of my sincerity and that I will come to you, that I have no plans to hurt you, but only want to be happy with you. I also wanted to say, that I had some conversation with my mom yesterday. You know that our relations with my family are not very good... But I still have the opportunity to speak with my mother sometimes. She came to visit me yesterday evening. I told her about you and that I am looking forward to the day when I will go to you and meet you. I told her that these dreams and thoughts that fill my whole head. And I very much look forward to our meeting.

My mom was listening to me with some sadness. I saw it and it was a little hard for me. I know that after my departure, she will remain here in Azerbaijan with my father, and it will be not usual for her for first time, knowing that I'm somewhere too far. She used, that I was seldom speak with her, and she could see me if she wanted, could talk to me and was calm about me and my condition. I really wanted to talk to her on this subject, and we had this conversation. She confirmed to me that she have a slight sadness about me and my future. But on the other hand, she told me that it is natural and I can not spend my whole life alone in this country, it's not right, and one day it should be happen. So she now understands me and will accept my decision. My mom is a very wise woman, and I always knew she would understand right and understand my decision. The last thing my mother said was that she hopes you are decent man, and you will take care of me and then my mother would be absolute quiet and happy for me and for us. I tried to convince her that it will be so!

I was glad that I could talk to my mom about it before I go to you. Since it is much better if all the talk and explain to her instead of leaving it without explanation. Now I have peace of mind about it. My mom is my most loved one in this life, I am grateful to her for all that she done for me. She gave me life, she gave me the education, training, ongoing support. And I 'll never forget it! I wanted to tell you about it today, so you knew it. I now have absolute tranquility can plan my soon visit to you. And I very much look forward to our meeting! I love you and I am sure that this our meeting, it will be the beginning of our new life together. Life in which we truly happy. I love you, I finish my letter. Tell me, how was your days, if there was something interesting? Love you, miss you, looking forward to our soon meeting.